nobody knows what i feel, how i feel. I feel like im a prisoner of sadness.. left in an empty room, just me and my troubled mind.
When will I be free from this feeling? Is there anyone out there who will save me? release me? make me feel happy again?
What if it’s just me and my self? That I am a prisoner of my own self. What if my real enemy here is my self?
What if I’m the one who don’t let myself to be happy and free? Will somebody let me know?
Why is that I don’t have any strength, courage and will to write everything in my head here in tumblr. It’s not that I am not allowed to do so, but it is me who don’t want to. So I guess, every little thoughts, bother, rants, emotion, and everything that I’m feeling will be forever left unsaid.
No one knows and nobody will.
Your attitude towards me makes me feel less guilty. So go on, keep on wearing your fake halo. :p
Funny when I’m all alone is the only time that I feel so at peace, safe and away from pain and trouble.
So many things, lots of pain, to much troubles, countless sufferings and infinite tears.. I want to throw it all away until I feel nothing, numb and null. I just want to feel nothing. I even don’t want to feel happy, yeah, it’s okay for me not to be happy anymore, I’m getting used to be unhappy anyway.. All I want and all I ask is to have a PEACE of mind, have my heart and soul settle at ease. I want my eyes and my heart to stop crying. I’m tired of wiping my eyes so as my heart. I am not looking for my happiness anymore, guess my searching is over. I’m tired of having disappointment, maybe happiness is never written in the palm of my hands..